I just get scared
I am scared. I love being a housewife, don't get me wrong. When I look at what we used to spend going out to dinner living the fast life, etc, it thrills me that I can do all of that myself and save a fortune. More than I was making, in fact.
But I still get scared! Call me ridiculous, but it's true. In the next month, we have a wedding, Matt's birthday, insurance on 3 cars, inspection and licensing and taxes...then we move to Christmas.
I'm panicking. I mean, I am seriously out and out panicking.
I just got a lead as a substitute teacher at a local district. I'm trying to apply online, but I'm just not sure what to say. If there are any teachers out there who are willing to help coach me, I would certainly appreciate it!
So here I am in a state of mild panic (I can feel the depression closing in on me). Sometimes it infuriates me that I can let my childhood, and the fact that I had to earn my keep in my home, overshadow what I and my husband want me to be.
I'm being picky. Work at the school district; that way I'm off when the kids are off. Work at the college, so I can pay for the kids' education. Pros and cons to each. What to do what to do? Of course, neither is an option now. There is nothing open locally. But the nearby district? Maybe! I just need an in.
Another track...my friend, Becky, is giving away 3 copies of Amy Grant's new book. I love Amy's music. When I was a Christian DJ in the late 80's and early '90's, I loved her music. My FAVORITE Amy Grant album is Unguarded. Truth be told, I just wanted the jacket on the cover HA HA! Seriously good music. Anyway, for your chance to win one of Becky's books, visit her blog at Joyful Mother.
But I still get scared! Call me ridiculous, but it's true. In the next month, we have a wedding, Matt's birthday, insurance on 3 cars, inspection and licensing and taxes...then we move to Christmas.
I'm panicking. I mean, I am seriously out and out panicking.
I just got a lead as a substitute teacher at a local district. I'm trying to apply online, but I'm just not sure what to say. If there are any teachers out there who are willing to help coach me, I would certainly appreciate it!
So here I am in a state of mild panic (I can feel the depression closing in on me). Sometimes it infuriates me that I can let my childhood, and the fact that I had to earn my keep in my home, overshadow what I and my husband want me to be.
I'm being picky. Work at the school district; that way I'm off when the kids are off. Work at the college, so I can pay for the kids' education. Pros and cons to each. What to do what to do? Of course, neither is an option now. There is nothing open locally. But the nearby district? Maybe! I just need an in.
Another track...my friend, Becky, is giving away 3 copies of Amy Grant's new book. I love Amy's music. When I was a Christian DJ in the late 80's and early '90's, I loved her music. My FAVORITE Amy Grant album is Unguarded. Truth be told, I just wanted the jacket on the cover HA HA! Seriously good music. Anyway, for your chance to win one of Becky's books, visit her blog at Joyful Mother.
I think we all have times when we panic about money. I just went thru this myself. Not panic exactly, but nervous. But God came thru and it turned out ok. My nervousness was based on a finacial hit last year and I was afraid it would happen again. So I think when we've had a negative experience it cause us to have a fear and make it harder to trust God. I feel much better now and the good experience has built up my faith. I don't know if this applies at all to your situation but just thought I'd share.
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Linda, you're so right. And today, I opened my mailbox to find a 3 month past due payment FROM a client of mine, whom I was sure I had lost. That felt really good. AND, Cotillion is going to pay me for some secretarial work (I'm building and maintaining the website, and I'm calling everyone to remind them about the website and classes).
God provides. Period.
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See??? He had it all under control the whole time. We just get so impatient, don't we?
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