Musings
I am exhausted.
BUT...I simply cannot sleep. I have been suffering from insomnia for 2 nights now. This happens to me sometimes. It will go on for weeks, months. 1-2 hours of sleep a night, then I work all day, fully exhausted by 6:00, but when it's BEDTIME, I'm wide awake and wired. None of the standard remedies and tricks work. My body just has to catch up to itself.
I am exhausted.
Now, I promised a run down on the cruise, but there is so much to say, that it's still in draft form. Still not sure how I'll share everything. It was an amazing trip. We're considering another trip next December (2008). Shhhhh...it's a surprise for the kids.
Still struggling with the work thing. I DO NOT WANT TO WORK. I love my job. LOVE IT. But I want to stop. I don't want that responsibility for a while. I have pretty much negated my workload. I have a total of 2 clients. And I don't want any more.
I had a bad day with the kids today. They're struggling with the fact that they return to school Thursday. And I'm the target. I yelled and screamed and cried. It was a bad day. I am a bad mom. Maybe if I weren't so tired, I would have handled it better. But I'm exhausted. I'm not handling anything well.
My 20th (!) high school reunion was last weekend. OH MY GOSH, I am old and fat. And I have NOT aged well. I felt very fuddy duddy in that group. Nothing has changed. But it was a GOOD time. I saw some people I truly love. Crushes were there. Old friends. Renewing relationships. It was a lot of fun. And a lot of rum. Here are the ladies who stayed late!
I hear Darren snoring in the next room. I tried to go to bed, but he, with his LONG legs, is at an angle. So I don't fit. And he won't wake up LOL
Please pray. Emily and I have one week to decide whether or not to participate in my church's Mexico Mission Trip. I've never been on a mission trip, but have always wanted to go. I'm nervous about my health, and just what can I really do? Will I be a burden? But I've always wanted to do this, so what is really holding me back? Emily desperately wants to go. She has been begging for 2 years. We build a house for a family. I think that would be amazing.
Good night.
BUT...I simply cannot sleep. I have been suffering from insomnia for 2 nights now. This happens to me sometimes. It will go on for weeks, months. 1-2 hours of sleep a night, then I work all day, fully exhausted by 6:00, but when it's BEDTIME, I'm wide awake and wired. None of the standard remedies and tricks work. My body just has to catch up to itself.
I am exhausted.
Now, I promised a run down on the cruise, but there is so much to say, that it's still in draft form. Still not sure how I'll share everything. It was an amazing trip. We're considering another trip next December (2008). Shhhhh...it's a surprise for the kids.
Still struggling with the work thing. I DO NOT WANT TO WORK. I love my job. LOVE IT. But I want to stop. I don't want that responsibility for a while. I have pretty much negated my workload. I have a total of 2 clients. And I don't want any more.
I had a bad day with the kids today. They're struggling with the fact that they return to school Thursday. And I'm the target. I yelled and screamed and cried. It was a bad day. I am a bad mom. Maybe if I weren't so tired, I would have handled it better. But I'm exhausted. I'm not handling anything well.
My 20th (!) high school reunion was last weekend. OH MY GOSH, I am old and fat. And I have NOT aged well. I felt very fuddy duddy in that group. Nothing has changed. But it was a GOOD time. I saw some people I truly love. Crushes were there. Old friends. Renewing relationships. It was a lot of fun. And a lot of rum. Here are the ladies who stayed late!
I hear Darren snoring in the next room. I tried to go to bed, but he, with his LONG legs, is at an angle. So I don't fit. And he won't wake up LOL
Please pray. Emily and I have one week to decide whether or not to participate in my church's Mexico Mission Trip. I've never been on a mission trip, but have always wanted to go. I'm nervous about my health, and just what can I really do? Will I be a burden? But I've always wanted to do this, so what is really holding me back? Emily desperately wants to go. She has been begging for 2 years. We build a house for a family. I think that would be amazing.
Good night.
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